I didn't grow up with a father.
I held close in my heart the sadness
on those days
a father would have participated.
Bithdays, graduations, my wedding,
the birth of my children, passed with a box unchecked.
Spending my adolecence in search of him
I contacted grandparents.
Not knowing they were ill and probably
did not even know who I was
I gave up my search.
Life goes on.
You sink or swim.
I chose to swim.
I had a family of my own.
I won't tell you the ache in my heart ever went away.
I almost never spoke of it -
but it was there just the same.
Imagine my surprise twelve years ago
receiving an email through a popular website.
I can see the light of the computer,
feel the click of the keys,
waiting for the sun,
to come up.
It was about 5 in the morning and
I had just had my twins.
It is amazing life can be that simple.
What a gift!
So glad he found me!
You never know where life will take you.
Happy Fathers Day!
Enjoy the opportunity.